Oi minha familia!!! Eu amo voces!! Friday, November 7, 2014
yep and that about all i will write for now.....
GUYS ITS MY LAST FEW DAYS HERE HOW CRAZY IS THAT???? I can't
believe that i will be leaving for Porto Alegre on tuesday. Apparently I get to
call you at the airport so you might get a call early in the morning or later
morning.
this past sunday was fast sunday and on fast sundays we have
CTM conference. and guess what. we had a special number by yours truly. I sang
with sis p and 2 other sister missionaries in our room. Sister P woke up sick
that morning and was super bummed but it all worked out for the best. WE sang I
Stand All Amazed and i picked it because it reminded me of Jace and how much I
loved it when he sang it for the first time. I sang a solo and it was probably
the most terrifying moment on the mission yet but it was super fun.
This week was hard like the rest. Except one good thing was
that Elder Pride is amazing. we had the best week and i was beyond thrilled.
except now we have elder negative. He is constantly complaining
to the point where I have to plug my ears every time he talks. Just one trial
after another here jeez. But i do love these guys and will be so sad when the
time comes for us to go. I will probably never see Sis p and Mochawki again
because theyre from south africa. literally hurts my heart when i think about
it.
Ok so this week is the week when the language either takes
off or it doesnt. so on monday our instructor sat down with each companionship
and basically gave us a progress report. he started off with Sis p which isnt a
good sign because you always start with the good news. he basically said how
she is soaring with the language and turns to me and pretty much says that I
havent progressed since after the second week. Ive never wanted to cry more in
my life. I have been told by so many missionaries, "dont compare
yourself" yet here is my instructor comparing me to my whole district. And
I feel like i have been working so hard and the language just doesnt come. I
totally understand it I just cant speak it. Im hoping that once im in the field
itll be better becuase I will be forced to learn it. After crying my eyes out
for 30 min after meeting with my professor, i stopped and took a second to
think. Its not fair that hes comparing me to everyone else becuase we all learn
differently. plus ive only been here for 5 weeks so im clearly not going to be
fluent. And once i thought that I literally felt His arms wrap around me. I
felt His love so strongly like I do every single day here. It is amazing how
much he knows and loves me as He does everyone of you.
Later that night I was feeling down cause I just had the
worst day and I was talking to Sister Morley in my room (she sang with me) and
she felt the same way. Its actually kind of ridiculous how similar we are. We
are both loud and crazy and love to laugh. She has an amazing spirit but she
feels like me when it comes to the language so I felt a little better. Plus, missionaries from the Provo MTC come every week and I know more than them cause
im literally immersed in it so that boosted me up a little too. Im just
scared to speak. Im terrified of looking like a dork which is so dumb because i
dont want to fell that way. I want to speak it freely and not care but i guess
im just scared of being judged by people since ive been here 6 weeks and still
know nothing.
I think im just ready to get out there. here we teach our
teachers who arent real people and I want to get to know actual people with
actual problems that need His help. I want to be His instrument more than
anything right now.
My new favorite book in the LDM (BOM) is 3rd Nephi,
especially the chapters when Christ comes. those are just the best. in chapter
18. Christ knows each of us, every struggle, worry, loss, pain/feeling we have
ever felt. We are HIS sheep and we are of HIS fold. He loves us and will seek
after us until we are found. How amazing is that to know that He will come
looking for us if we wander off. Sometimes it is that thought only that gets me
through the day.
Halloween looked so much fun! so sad i missed it!! and KADE!
I HEARD YOU DID AMAZING I cant wait to see it once I get home. I thought of you
all night knowing that you were going to bring the house down. love you so much
bud!! xoxo
ok Jaces picture? best thing ever. everyone i showed it to,
and i showed everyone, thought he was 20. and all the girls think hes a babe.
which he is. Hope his leg is better. love that boy. GOOD LUCK TONIGHT JACER.
Youre amazing in every way shape and form. youll be awesome ill be cherring for
you down here in brazil.
Mikah, I had a feeling that you should get your patriarchal
blessing. I just know that my senior year I
wish I had it and it helps me so much. I think it would be awesome blessing
for you too right now. I hope all is well with friends and high school. best of
luck with the application, youll be great just get it done and youll fell so
much better. do not procrastinate like me. WRITE ME and tell me how you are!!
ALL OF YOU WRITE ME! AND BE GENEROUS. haha i just love you all so much.
love, sister harrick
I am literally getting eaten alive out here. have 20 bug
bites and theyre all scarring. YAY.....
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